2You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
Praying in Oneness with Christ is one of the scariest topics in a growing Christian’s life. To be ‘one with Christ’ is an overwhelming thought because it means that I must completely submit my will to His. I know as a Christ follower, I started off crawling before walking with Him. I desire every day to wake up to a day that will bring new opportunities to be conformed to the character of Christ. But to totally submit my will to His so that I may be one with Him in prayer?!?! Whoa! This is where the rubber meets the road.
Do I trust Him? I should. He has shown up around every corner, revealing His provision to meet my need in a way only He can, time after time.
Do I trust myself? Now that is a different question. I’d have to answer “no.” Life has thrown surprise curveballs, even when I devote myself to following and serving Him and His people. I don’t know about you but for me, these are confusing times. When I think I am doing the right thing, I still wonder, “Am I?” Am I doing what is best in God’s eyes, or have I rationalized the situation to believe that I am? James tells us plainly that we do not get what we ask for because we are asking with the wrong motive: for worldly passions.
It is at times like these that I am especially glad that Jesus is our intercessor. Romans 8:26 tells us: In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
I am grateful for a sovereign God. When I’ve screwed things up so badly that I can’t even be sure I have a “right” perspective, I thank God that I can be prostrate at His feet and totally surrender to Him. I can ask Him to intercede in my prayers, so that I may be one with Him and that He make Himself known to me, that He protect me from my own poor decisions. I thank you, Jesus, as I grow to be more like you.