He Scared the Hell Out of Me
Isaiah 11:2 NIV
The Spirit of the Lord will rest on him— the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding, the Spirit of counsel and of might, the Spirit of the knowledge and fear of the Lord…
“…It’s what we know that just ain’t so that is our greatest obstacle.”- Josh Billings
O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. (To get the full experience open your Bible and read the full passage through verse 18)
That is a wonderful scripture when everything’s good in your world, a very encouraging scripture.
But, last year that scripture scared the hell out of me.
I was in the midst of my own personal hell: a job loss, crushed dreams, physical maladies and relentless anxiety and depression. Fear was tormenting me. Looking at this scripture from my personal perspective was horrifying. If God loved me and did all those wonderful things for His people, how could He let these things happen to me?
As if that wasn’t horrifying enough, the rest of the chapter really scared the hell out of me.
Psalm 139:19-22 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked! Get out of my life, you murderers! They blaspheme you; your enemies misuse your name. O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you? Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you? Yes, I hate them with total hatred, for your enemies are my enemies.
I am my own worst enemy. My perspective was skewed. The “what I know that just ain’t so” wasn’t lining up with what God says.
We have control over two things, our actions and our attitudes. I thought about that…
I could move around, so I began a simple exercise program. I could read, so I read worship songs and the Bible aloud to myself. Soon, those things I thought I knew about God changed. The wrong thoughts I had that scared the hell out of me fell away, and I slowly began to recover.
When you do all you can for as long as you can…. when you take control of your actions and your attitudes…. when you un-skew your view of the One who cares for you, then you will appreciate having had the hell scared out of you. And you will begin to look at things differently. That verse in Isaiah goes on to say…
…and he will delight in the fear of the Lord. He will not judge by what he sees with his eyes, or decide by what he hears with his ears;” (Isaiah 11:3)
So, when you get the hell scared out of you, you can be sure of this: You are close! When the hell is gone from your view, you will begin to experience God’s blessings more fully. Delight in that because when the only fear you have is the Spirit of the Fear of the Lord, you have nothing to fear for He is with you.
– John Bundy